I started therapy. It’s been useful. She’s helping me creae and stick to routines.

First up, I wanted to write more often. The assignment? Write something every day. Even if it’s just one sentence – or even one word. So I’m gonna start tonight. I can’t decide if I’m gonna write here or on paper. If it’s on paper, I’ll post a transcript weekly.

We shall see what I decide.


Ok, so update on my post about psychiatrists yesterday. Apparently now most psychiatrists don’t even do therapy – only meds. So I have to go to a whole other place for counseling.

What a racket. I mean, shouldn’t we be able to go to a psychological professional that can take care of our whole person, instead of just one piece? That doesn’t help anyone get the full picture.

Well, the good news is I have an appointment this week with a therapist, and an intake visit next week with a psychiatrist. I won’t get in to see the psychiatrist until May, but that actually works well for me. Summer is my slow time at work, so adjusting to the meds won’t cause much trouble.

So, the ball is rolling. I’m taking steps toward a better me. I have to admit, filling out the questionnaire for the therapist yesterday made me feel nuts – having to list all of my issues. But that’s why I’m seeking help. This isn’t a “pull yourself up by the bootstraps and keep going” situation. This is a deep, dark hole that needs a rope ladder. I’ve started to put the ladder together. Soon, someone will be up top ready to catch it – then I can slowly climb out.

Here’s hoping.